I don´t think I can take it any longer ...

[Pearl offline]

Well, my life SUCKS. My parents don´t give me credit for my grades, and I really study so I can get them. My father is always working, and when he´s at home he likes to point all the thing that I don´t do right or that he disagrees with. My mother doesn´t trust me enough, my middle sis, she´s like my father, only that she doesn´t work yet and sometimes she is terribly false and my old sis, she doesn´t have a normal relationship with my father for more than ten years now and she loves to spit the truth about certain things when she´s mad about something. My grandma, the only one out of four grandparents that I have, I can´t help but think about how she treats my sisters better than me, which could mean that she cares more about them. And on top of all of that, I don´t have any friends at school or at my neighborhood or anything. Besides, there just too many bullies at school and I´m usually their favorite target. I´m horrible at sports. A couple of weeks ago, I was feeling so depressed because everything was going wrong ( I had a musical apresentation and there was this special mass at church where I would participate right on the same evening ), that I wrapped a towel around my neck and got really close to end everything. And that´s only the fourth time I try something like that. One day, I´ll probrably give it all up for good and commit suicide for real. Also, all my classmates are dating or have dated at least twice. I can´t help but feel I´m a little late on this kind of things, since I haven´t ever kissed yet. Everyday I wake up and think " Please, God, take out my life cause I don´t wanna live anymore, please "

[Rail Runner offline]

wow...Pearl...I am sorry to hear about these many problems...most of us have been there in one way or another...stick around and we can help you to get through these things...We care about everyone on this board...we are all friends....so dont say that you dont have any friends because you really do have friends, we are all here to help each other..kk?

[Ghost Guest offline]

I know things are tough for you now but believe me, life eventually gets better. The trick is to survive the hard times. Many people go through a similar situation to yours and remain strong because they believe there's something more to life than just suffering. I believe in that too. Your problems won't disappear all of a sudden but you can count on the fact that there will always be someone that cares about you and will try to make you feel better. You may find that person (or people) here in these forums, in your house or somewhere else, but you can be sure you're not alone to deal with your problems.

[The BB of C offline]

I have always had at least one friend. But I do know someone who was in a very similar situation to this and here's what happened.
He was born without a father figure in his life. He is an only child to this day. He used to get picked on and bullied all of the time because he was really underweight and skinny. His mother doesn't understand too much about modern social situations at school and in neighborhoods. Basically, this guy was on his own all his life. One day, he got fed up and rose against one of his most common bullies and took him down. He realized since nobody would or could stick up for him, that he would have to stick up for himself if he wanted to live. To this day, he is 17 years old, is one of the most popular people in the district, is the most feared fighter in three towns, he can play all sorts of instruments, and has quite the love life. He is one of the most multi-facited individuals I know.
The moral of this story is that you don't have anyone to stick up for you, so if you truely want to put an end to all the crap that goes on in your life, you'll stand up for yourself and no matter how many times you'll fail, no matter how badly it may seem, you'll keep getting up and trying again. I mean that with every fiber of my being reguardless if I knw what it's like for you or not.

[HYDEfangirl offline]

aww that is so sad. I'll be your friend

[. offline]

if you need a place to vent, feel free to instant message me.

Don't give up though, thats a horrible choice to make

[Lyoko SA80 offline]

I know how you feel pearl .I feel like that alot laterly .I know that people like you have depressing times and good times .This is how I feeel right now in my topic bullying but in a different way.Try speaking to your mum/dad more .Your do now have friends here on Lyokofreak .I be a friend . I know how it feels to be in a warth of lonelyness ans dispear.Most of your srory they I can't real understand but one thing I can is that your need someone to talk to you .Send me a PM when you feel down ,sad ,depessed etc .I promise to send one back

Lyoko soilder is a scot who understands. Ask everyone(I hope)

[Jeremified offline]

Man... your life is really depressing. I think we can all be your friends here at LF, like monkey xo girl77 said.

[The BB of C offline]

That's not necissarily the best idea.

[Pearl offline]

Thank you, everyone. It´s nice to know I have friends out there, who know how I feel and like one of the things I like, Code Lyoko.

[Cecilia offline]

*hug* I've had that same mindset a lot...so much so that it's given me ulcers and all sorts of nasty medical stuff...

Even if it seems bad now...just ride it out. ^^ You'll make it through in one piece.

[Vora Lyoko offline]

I know how you feel Pearl. But don't kill yourself.

Everybody loves you and we don't want you gone.

I'm 16 and my parents get REALLY hard on me. Yesterday my momo grabbed me by the hair and shook me. She says I act like a 25 year old and I'm not. Sometimes I say to myself "Since everything in the house is my parent's including me I might kill my self." I'm old enough not to cry yet I do...Why must I be so sensitive!?!

But I want to live.


Everything in life will be better. Trust me. Your future will be better.
Your just have to shape it in the way you want. To me, graduating (I skipped two years) isn't the end of the world. Since my grades have slipped. My parents always yell down at me.

But the point is you'll get through it.

[Pearl offline]

About the suicide thing, yeah, I know I shouldn´t be thinking about it as the best solution for my probs but the fact is that sometimes, all I can think is how it would be good, what a relief it would be if I just could end my pain.

Sorry if I sound too melodramatic or anything but that´s how I feel. And I´m sorry for all of you who know how I feel.

You´ve all been really great to me, thanks.

[Lyoko SA80 offline]

There's one thing I hte to see is young people trying to kill them self .When I was at my school 5 people did it and the whole school was stop for that day.Yeah good but also a bad day .If evryone is not they at the point killing them self speak to people like us at lyokofreak .We all can help as a TEAM .

[The BB of C offline]

People just have to realize that killing themselves isn't worth it. People have to realize that whenever a hill goes up, it also goes down. Meaning that for every good time in life there is a bad time. It's a fact. Sometimes the bad times last longer than the good times. But if you kill yourself because of a bad time in life, then you will never see a good time again. I've heard of people killing themselves over the stupidest little things that could have easily been solved, but they will never get that chance now. Don't ever put yourself in a situation like that.