I have a case of severe depression. I play adventure games (such as Crash Bandicoot, Spyro, and also Sonic) in order to put positive stimulation in my empty life. The music in these types of games expressed the levels (environments) themselves. This is what opened up to me and gave me a sense of adventure. I felt as though it was meant to open up to me and understand and help my depression.
Now there was this animated series I used to watch known as "Eureka Seven." This show did not open up to me and help my depression. Because it was about a boy named Renton and a mystical girl named Eureka and their relationship. Their relationship did not relate to me as a person at all--it only related to themselves.
In other words, the show didn't open up to me and help my depression. Instead, it only related to itself. This gave me a sense of separation from the show since the very beginning I watched it.
This sense of separation is what lead to my ultimate despair when the music "Niji" was played in the last episode when Renton and Eureka kissed:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QogrpiR2W8o
Starting at 1:49 is when I started feeling overwhelmed (spiritually inferior). With those racing images of a sick fantasy of Eureka combined with the music (which shows such passion beyond reality that it's sickening) makes it an overwhelming sick fantasy. And of course, the moment they kissed combined with the music overwhelmed me the most.
It expressed the characters themselves so powerful that it completely overwhelmed me with despair. Now you would think that if a normal person were to witness this whole scenario and its music, it would relate to some spiritual event in that person's life--and the person would feel that event expressed. However, for me, it relates to no event in my life--it only relates to the characters themselves and targets the very emptiness in my life.
This is what made me feel that the characters were spiritually superior to me and my own reality. If this piece of music wasn't used for Eureka and Renton and was initially instead used in reality (such as church), I would be able to embrace the music (since it would then be a part of reality).
I am unable to embrace the music because it expresses the world of Eureka and Renton--a completely separate world from reality that I feel is superior to me because of this music and that it was only meant to express the characters themselves--and not relate to my depression at all. Though characters are no more than drawings, when a theme music is applied for that character, this character becomes a living essence (in the world of fantasy).
I feel that Eureka and Renton are living essence in the world of fantasy superior to my own living essence and my own world of reality.
Now I can handle games and cartoons (fantasy) that relates to us as human beings. But when it only relates to the relationship of the characters themselves to such an emotional degree (fantasy love), that's when it's disturbing.
Another example is this video right here which is with Sonic and Amy (starting at 1:20 when it shows such passion with Amy crying):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8soKtrJppU
For the creators of Sonic (as well as the show Eureka Seven) to go off into a world separate from reality and put so much emotion into something that doesn't even exist (as though it really does exist), is messed up. Reality should and always reign supreme. There should never be this sick fantasy world in which reality is enhanced (such as the vivid colors of nature, tears flowing, etc.) that was meant to be intended as superior to reality, and only relates to the characters themselves (intended as something people would perceive as something above reality as well as his/her own self).
And why is it that I say that last part in parenthesis? We as human beings are of reality and face horrific darkness/problems every single minute of our lives. And yet...these characters (Sonic and Amy, Eureka and Renton) are portrayed in such a sick fantasy way that shows you that their very souls are completely free in "sunshine and rainbows" and not bound by any form of darkness. It, again, shows such passion beyond reality that it's sickening. This relates against us and makes us as human beings feel inferior--because we want something that, at the very least, relates to something normal in our lives--something that actually exists.
I have no love in my life. I have no friends and I hardly have any contact (involvement) with my family.
I recognize love as the superior force above everything else in this world (and when love is combined with fantasy, that makes it all the more powerful). So when I witnessed those events (with Eureka and Renton) and Amy crying in that Sonic and Amy video, I was completely overwhelmed with a superior god-like force not of this world--a force which completely "destroyed" me.
I recognize myself as inferior and complete emptiness itself. I experience no love in my life whatsoever and it's as if I have no life essence of my own (and that the life essence of this fantasy takes complete possession of me and deteriorates me until I am no more).