I hate myself...

[666yumi666 offline]

Here's the deal... I, until now, thought I was ok. I looked good, I acted good and I thought I sounded good. But I got a new microphone 3 days ago. I played around on 'voice recorder' and replayed my voice... I sounded so RETARDED!!!! I thought my voice was nice and low... IT WAS HIGH AS A BLOODY KITE! Then, to make matters worse, I was having a mental breakdown and realised I was as ugly as a cockroches ass! So now I feel as nerdy as Bill Gates and I think everyone hates me... My best friend (who is also my girlfriend) probably hates me, so she will never talk to me and my friends friends from his old school who sound REALLY cool are going 'laser tagging' and I was going to meet them, but now i'm to scared to because I think they will hate me and I will probably find them really different from what I expected and have a nerves attack, making them hate me even more!

At the moment i'm shutting myself away from human contact because I will sound like a complet and utter idiot infront of them, and I tryed talking to my friend, but he wouldn't take me seriously, then I tried talking to my mum, but she kept saying "Oh... don't be silly" which was NO help wat-so-ever and made me feel worse about myself! I'm now affraid to make a speech for my class that I have to do on Monday! And quiting that will probably put me right at the bottom of the 'collage matirial list'... and that dosn't even exist! See how paranoid i am?!?!?!?! Oh god, I am a complete retard!

If there is anything anybody can say to help... please say it before I kill myself!

Thankyou... If you put something...

[Rail Runner offline]

dude, you are changing slightly..everyone goes through this stage...it will pass and everything will be fine...trust me..I went through this exact thing years ago...as far as for that class..do what you have to do...especially for the grade that counts...your voice will return to normal fairly soon...dont kill yourself dude, you are too cool to do that...and plus you have people who love you, think of them as well...and yes, you do have friends, think of them as well...I just lost a friend, I dont want to lose another one...and yes I do consider you a friend...you have all of us here at LF as friends...and we will help you through it...

[oddsgrlfriend offline]

*cough* puberty *cough* Also everyone's voice sound's horrible on a recorder to their own ear. I personally think my voice sounds all slurred when recorded, but everyone else says it sounds normal. Don't freak over it. Don't kill yourself or everyone actually will hate you. You're being paranoid that's all. NO ONE HATES YOU! Ok? Get that through your head now. Wow, I sound evil...sorry bout that. Just give yourself some time and everything will work out.

[Paige offline]

Yep, Puberty.

Dude, I'm sure you are very nice looking. If you weren't you probably wouldn't have a girlfriend.

Or maybe I'm wrong. But I think you should calm down and stop feeling so sorry for yourself. Stand up tall, look confident, feel confident and go meet those people that you think sound cool. It's not like they're gonna be all, "oh man, you are so ugly, get away from us, you are not worthy of our friendship." That's low, and I really don't think that anyone would do that to someone. But hey, I might be wrong there.

As for your friends, I suggest you do something really nice, or throw a really cool party. Hey, it's fun, and who in their right mind would turn down a party?

[666yumi666 offline]

Thanks guys *sniff* this really meens a lot to me... I guess your right... If I don't stop killing myself over it, then people will sart to hate me...
Oh THANKYOU!!!!!!!!! ((insert a massive hug here for my friends at LF))

[Rail Runner offline]

you are more than welcome..anytime you need us, we are here.

[The BB of C offline]

Look to solve your problems. Don't just look for words of encouragement. Frankly, I agree with your mother. Don't worry about other people hating you. If you try to please everyone, then they'll all hate you. Just go back to seeing your friends again and it will all come back. That feeling you get about feeling like an idiot when around them, completely ignore it because it's absolutely nothing of real significance and it's just messing you up and causing this stuff. Also, killing yourself is a retarded move. Even considering it just because a couple things are going wrong that aren't even real problems. You're fine. Just suck it up and get back out there. A couple of off days shouldn't throw you off forever and make you think everyone hates you and that you're ugly and all that. Do you understand?

[Carth]

Not to turn this into my own rant, but...this is kind of like my life. I feel like nobody likes me...so I try to please them all, and as a result I'm a suckup and a sissy-a** to them. I'll try to undo the damage in 8th grade...but it'll take a while.

Just try to block out the negative thoughts. And then face what you fear. It will help, trust me.

[Lola offline]

Don't worry. Thats where it all goes wrong always. If you don't care. You wont screw yourself up.