Love. Oh how it fills my heart with dread.

[KayLenny#7 offline]

*grits teeth* Darn it! You know that guy I'm always ranting about? Yeah. He just got himself a new girlfriend! And that boy won't even talk to me! Just one more guy I wasn't quite good enough for.

[Shi_Min_Xi offline]

Awww *pat pat* Wait...A NEW girlfriend...? So does that mean he's had more than one girlfriend...because if that's true...I don't you'll be with him for long EVEN if he DOES like you back....

[. offline]

*grits teeth* Darn it! You know that guy I'm always ranting about? Yeah. He just got himself a new girlfriend! And that boy won't even talk to me! Just one more guy I wasn't quite good enough for.

Swap around the sexes in that sentence and that is exactly who I feel 100% of the time.

[KayLenny#7 offline]

Awww *pat pat* Wait...A NEW girlfriend...? So does that mean he's had more than one girlfriend...because if that's true...I don't you'll be with him for long EVEN if he DOES like you back....

No. It means she's a new person. As in they just got together. He is looking for a serious relationship and it looks like he found his girl. </3 He didn't even give me a chance for much of a friendship.

[Kita K. offline]

DON'T be yourself. Be what the "in" crowd wants you to be, then meet someone who has a lot of the same interests as you, but not so many that you'll never be more than best friends of opposite genders, and be like, "Oh yeah! I love that (tv show, video game, illegal substance,) you do too!? Awesome!"

What do you mean "DON'T be yourself?" If people don't like you for who you are, then it sucks to be them. They don't have to like you, and you don't have to care if they don't!

Yourself is always cool, and believe me, I know cool . (Carlito fan.)

So KingCheez is not being cool then? *Bites into apple*

Yay! Carlito fans! Let's all spit in the face of people who do not want to be cool!

But on topic, I think you should stop worrying about crushes for the time being. Centering your social life around relationships will make your life miserable. If you lay off trying to get all the guys' attention, they will generally become closer to you in reach. After all, if they don't want your attention, they aren't worth it.

[KayLenny#7 offline]

I bet none of you even know why this is so important to me. It's not just one of those "boyfriends would be neat" things.

It's something... else.

[Ulrich Stern. offline]

I bet none of you even know why this is so important to me. It's not just one of those "boyfriends would be neat" things.

It's something... else.

Else eh? Hmmm. No I really don't know why it's that important to you, especially at this stage in your life. You have your entire life to find "that special someone". From what I've read your still in school correct? The thing that should be most important to you right now are your studies. A boyfriend would take up too much time right now from what you should really be doing. Not to say you can't go out to the movies and stuff either so you don't over work yourself. LOL. But at this point I don't see it as being vital that you have a boyfriend.

[KayLenny#7 offline]

I bet none of you even know why this is so important to me. It's not just one of those "boyfriends would be neat" things.

It's something... else.

Else eh? Hmmm. No I really don't know why it's that important to you, especially at this stage in your life. You have your entire life to find "that special someone". From what I've read your still in school correct? The thing that should be most important to you right now are your studies. A boyfriend would take up too much time right now from what you should really be doing. Not to say you can't go out to the movies and stuff either so you don't over work yourself. LOL. But at this point I don't see it as being vital that you have a boyfriend.

Yeah. From the info I've given, it's perfectly natural to see it that way.

But that something else involves something that most kids my age don't have to go through.

[Ulrich Stern. offline]

Yeah. From the info I've given, it's perfectly natural to see it that way.

But that something else involves something that most kids my age don't have to go through.

Well then, it looks like your at a set of cross roads. You can either spill it all, which you probably feel will risk peoples outlook on you from this forum if it's really as bad as you believe it to be. Or you can let it all end here. Though I must say the risk is really quite minimal. People here are very understanding and are here to help, and it's not like they can come up to you on the street and say "Remember that thing you told us all about on LF?" and embarass you. I'm not at all prying, it's completely your decision to make.

You have two choices. Take the blue pill and it all ends here. You'll wake up tomorrow with nothing gained and nothing lost. Or... you can take the red pill, and we'll see just how deep the rabbit hole goes... Your choice.

[Shi_Min_Xi offline]

Yeah. From the info I've given, it's perfectly natural to see it that way.

But that something else involves something that most kids my age don't have to go through.

Well then, it looks like your at a set of cross roads. You can either spill it all, which you probably feel will risk peoples outlook on you from this forum if it's really as bad as you believe it to be. Or you can let it all end here. Though I must say the risk is really quite minimal. People here are very understanding and are here to help, and it's not like they can come up to you on the street and say "Remember that thing you told us all about on LF?" and embarass you. I'm not at all prying, it's completely your decision to make.

You have two choices. Take the blue pill and it all ends here. You'll wake up tomorrow with nothing gained and nothing lost. Or... you can take the red pill, and we'll see just how deep the rabbit hole goes... Your choice.

I agree here. We're understanding people and like Ulrich Stern said, We can't go off and embrass you on the street or anywhere except here. But if you want to spill or not is your choice. We're not going to force you but I'm sure we'll all listen to what you'll tell us.

[. offline]

Yeah. From the info I've given, it's perfectly natural to see it that way.

But that something else involves something that most kids my age don't have to go through.

Well then, it looks like your at a set of cross roads. You can either spill it all, which you probably feel will risk peoples outlook on you from this forum if it's really as bad as you believe it to be. Or you can let it all end here. Though I must say the risk is really quite minimal. People here are very understanding and are here to help, and it's not like they can come up to you on the street and say "Remember that thing you told us all about on LF?" and embarass you. I'm not at all prying, it's completely your decision to make.

You have two choices. Take the blue pill and it all ends here. You'll wake up tomorrow with nothing gained and nothing lost. Or... you can take the red pill, and we'll see just how deep the rabbit hole goes... Your choice.

neo: Hey look over there!
*Morpheus turns around, Neo takes both pills at the same time*
Neo: HA!

[KayLenny#7 offline]

Er... I hate pills.

But realize that this stuff is stuff I wouldn't even tell my cousin. And that's means serious stuff.

I guess I might give a general vibe:

I live in a hateful, emotionally jacked up, financially confused, socially retarded family.

And from that, you could probably see why I'd need someone to go to.

And before you say "friends!", all they do is say "I sympathise." and pat you on the back.

Am I making sense, or must I say more?

[Ulrich Stern. offline]

What more to you expect a boyfriend to be able to do or say other then what your friends already do? They wouldn't be able to do much more then say "I sympathise" like your friends do. This doesn't sound like what you need is a boyfriend. It sounds like what you need to be doing is finding the strength within yourself to pull yourself through this tough time in your life. You can't depend on anyone else, even a husband or wife to be able to help you through all your problems. There are just some things you have to be able to handle on your own, and this sounds like one of those things.

"You must look from within, for if you look from without that's exactly what you'll be left with."
(I don't know who first said that.)

[KayLenny#7 offline]

I would say something there, but I'm not the type to make myself sound pathetic on command (if I haven't already). Meh. Just forget it. I couldn't come right out and tell you guys all this stuff. Abd besides, it's probably one of those thigs that you'd have to be me to understand how I feel, y'know? A bunch of people online can't help a problem like this anyways.

[Pika53 offline]

Angelbolt wrote:
*Glues hair back on*

Yeah, you're right. What was I thinking?
Guys are stubborn. Faget them
KIE: You're one to talk... you still have a crush since 1st grade!

Hey, not all us guys are that bad!

Anyway, Numbuh I certainly understand what your going through. I had a rough time trying to fit in when I was in high school.
My, advice is to just be yourself and not let it get you down. Sooner or later things are bound to get better.